……ummmmmm…….Yah, not really sure what the up side of it all is?

We’ve had 2 crazy busy days followed by a totally quiet day(yesterday) and now I’m feeling totally down.

Yesterday was pretty good. J kept asking me if it was Boxing Day ’cause I was putting everything into boxes. Hee Hee!

Yah, mostly everything “Christmas” is gone. I still have some “winter” stuff up and will keep it up until the middle of January, but then it will get packed away as well. That is why I put everything up a month before Christmas, ’cause as far as I’m concerned – When Christmas is over, It’s Over! You don’t celebrate Valentine’s Day after February the 14th, or Thanksgiving in the days after the actual date – What makes Christmas any different? That’s my opinion and Yes, I’m well aware that it’s not shared by all and I’m okay with you celebrating differently than me. This is just how I do it! Okay! Glad we got that all straightened out.

So, I was saying, yesterday was a relaxed day, cleaning up, putting things away – I even spent the whole day in my new house coat. My mother-in-law gave it to me for Christmas, and I love it. It’s HUGE and COZY and RED! I spent all day yesterday just hanging out and slowly getting stuff done. It was great!

Talking to a friend of the phone yesterday I had glimpses of my over-active emotions that were threatening to spill out, but I was able to hold them back.

Not so much today!

It’s a good and bad day – all together at the same time. It’s still relaxing, and fairly calm. Kids are being good except for the odd squabble. The house is slowly on it’s way to being clean and tidy. It’s hard to find a place for everything after Christmas, and then the kids keep pulling stuff out to play with and creating new messes faster than I can get everything else tidied. And yet, I’m having a somewhat sad day. Crying about little things…..crying for no reason……gotta love that one, hey?….crying because I don’t know how to explain what I’m feeling or why………hating when people try to “fix” the problem…….

Now that I’ve laid down onthe couch to talk it over with you – I’m starting to feel a little better. At least until I start to cry again. I had been crying off and on since 12:30pm and it was just after 3pm when I started this post. I’m glad you are such a good shrink. My nose was getting raw from blowing it too often, and my eyes were hurting from the cheap-o toilet paper we buy. Now what I’m left with is a wicked headache.

I think I’ll go and take 2 asprin and call you in the morning.

edited to add:

I looked outside my kitchen window, and the sky oustide matches exactly how I feel. It’s a little grey and cloudy, but you can still see the sun reflected on a few of the clouds so it’s not all yucky!