Were you wondering where I was? Or maybe not……

For those of you who care – I am in Olympia, Washington! It is about an hour on the other side of Seattle. I think going south. All I know is that I drove for 4 hours away from my hours and kids and especially Jon.

Why are you in Olympia? You might ask…..I recognise that some of you didn’t or might not have asked that, but, LUCKY YOU, you get the answer anyway. I am nothing if not informative.

I am down here getting some counselling….as in therapy…..as in “Am I crazy?”

Well, no I’m not crazy! This is more of a tune up or for preventative measures. If you had the opportunity to deal with some of those things that were “hot buttons” or issues or problems that you knew about, wouldn’t you want to. Now yes, I realize that it’s not always fun saying to someone, “HEY, you have free reign to dig through my crappy life and find all the bad things and help me recognise and deal with them.” but do you know how good it feels when you clean out a room and throw away all the junk and garbage and are left with an amazing, clean and functional room. Now just apply that to your life and emotional state.

Nuthin’ better that a clean house! I’m cleaning house!

Today we talked all about me! And we all know that it’s ALL about me, isn’t it. I’ll let you in on a little secret. I only cried once. That’s pretty good, ’cause today we were talking about the bad things about me. Okay, it’s not all bad, but in today’s sessions (3 of them) we were specifically looking for the junk. I made it all the way through until about 6:oopm and then I remembered about how I somtimes feel like a bother or like my kids are a bother to other people. NO, I’M NOT LOOKING FOR YOU TO TELL ME THAT YOU’RE SURE THEY AREN’T OR THAT YOU KNOW THEY AREN’T! This isn’t about reality. This is how I feel. Somebody once said to me to be careful that my kids were not a bother, and what I heard was, “YOU HAVE TO BE CAREFUL BECAUSE YOU’RE KIDS ARE A BOTHER AND THEN YOU, in turn, ARE BOTHERING PEOPLE BY HAVING YOUR KIDS AROUND!

Doesn’t that sound terrible! I know it does! That’s one of the things I’m here to work on. I never want my kids to think or feel that I think that they are a bother. Wow, I almost confused myself with that sentence.

I finally got access to the Internet. The place I am staying at is gorgeous, but the lady is not really computer literate. When I asked for the key to be able to access wireless connection. She told me that she didn’t have any key to be able to do that. She was thinking “a real key” I had to explain that I needed a code. Even then she wasn’t real sure what I was talking about. Finally tonight she looked around and found a bunch of numbers and letters that were a “webkey” and “Was that what I was looking for?” You know, maybe it is. How ’bout if you get that for me and I’ll see if it works. What do you know……It does!

And here I am. Only now I want to talk to Jon and I have no idea why he’s not answering his MSN Messenger. Thanks a lot, sweetheart! It’s not like the home computer isn’t in the middle of the kitchen where you can hear it from every room in the house. WHAT ARE YOU DOING????????? I NEED YOU! I WANT YOU! Ooooops, ther are other people around…..uh, just pretend I didn’t say that. I LOVE YOU!

Anyhow, I am staying at the most beautiful Bed and Breakfast. Here are some pics of the place.