Well, I’m not sure what’s up with the video? It was working! Not sure why it stopped! I’ll get Jon to look at it and figure things out.

I’m trying to think about getting ready for our vacation on Saturday. I know that I’ve been away, but this is our “Family” vacation. Jon is coming with us. One whole week of no work, no pressure, just fun and relaxation, no phones, no computers! We went last year! It was our first real family vacation ever. We loved it so much, that we decided to do it again this year.

I need to plan out our meals, and what we are going to bring. Every time we go camping or on vacation I try to pare it back a little more. I always end up taking WAY TOO MUCH! This year camping was nice ’cause I took WAY LESS than usual, but even so I still had too much! I’ll get it all figured out one day!

We are staying in a cabin/house unit/thingy! Beds, toilets, showers, a kitchen with stove, fridge, coffee pot – All the comforts of home, but you are responsible to bring everything that you need. That is my kind of camping! I can’t wait. It’s in the Okanagan – in the desert. So nice and hot! We are going with 2 families that are friends of ours – as opposed to enemies, ha ha ha!

So, I really need to get cracking on that! Don’t want to wait until the last minute! Then I’d be stressed, and who needs the extra stress.

Oh yah! I had a Doctor’s appointment yesterday that I forgot to tell you all about. Thanks for reminding me. What? Oh you forgot, too! That’s okay! I’ll tell you about it anyway!

Nothing final or finishing has really happened in regards to the end of this pregnancy. That sucks! The doctor has given me some meds to kick start things into happening. He figured that what happened is that little Mr. Spermy and Little Miss Egg were old or gimped or something, and seeing as when the magic was supposed to be happening, we had no magic going on, that it was kinda doomed from the get go. They call it a chemical pregnancy – when it happens, but it really doesn’t happen! Clear as Mud, ain’t it? Glad I could help you out! I’m nothing if not informative!

He’s putting me on progesterone! I will take the progesterone in the second half of my cycle, and when I get pregnant, then I will continue to take the progesterone until 12 weeks. It’s supposed to help things out! Hopefully it does the trick! I feel quite positive about it all!

In some ways I actually feel quite guilty that I’m not more devastated by it all! But honestly, in my mind, it is WAY easier to have the loss right away than to wait for 12 or 15 weeks, and then to find out. I was so much more invested in the other ones. Maybe I just didn’t have the time to get invested in this one the same way! Who Knows! All I know is that I can’t stay in a bad funked out state, and let my life fall apart around me. I owe it to myself and to Jon and to the kids to pick myself up and keep on going. Not that I don’t have down times, but I just choose to not stay in those bad spaces. It’s not going to help me get ahead in any way, so…….one foot in front of the other…….

I’m looking forward to the next cycle! It’s a good thing to have something to look forward to.

Well, I need to make a list! I love me some lists! Gotta figure out what I need from the store, and what I need to bake, and what I need to pack! I also need to clean my house!

Oh! I want to get my hair done too, not that this really matters to you, but do you watch Rockstar: Supernova? I love Dilana‘s hair. The pink and the black with the blond streaks underneath. I could take or leave the blue streaks. The blue dye fades too quickly, and you are left with a nasty grey! I know that my hair isn’t that long, but it’s longer than it’s been in a very looooong time. I just love the color. I was thinking about how to describe what I want to someone, and I like the weird, edgy colors, with a not too weird edgy haircut! Does that make any sense? I guess it really doesn’t have to, does it? I can just leave it at, I like it!

Well, enough with the mental ramblings! Have a great day!