I’m so worried about J! I know that I can’t protect him from the world, but oh how I wish that I could! He’s so special and unique and soft and gentle, but that can translate into weird, and odd with no sense of personal space or boundaries. It’s so hard!

I know that with all I’ve said about them all going to full day school that I should be thrilled, but I’m not! It’s the first day of Grade One at a brand new school and no one knows him. They don’t know that beneath the surface of endless energy is a soft little heart that just breaks if not treated with care.

I know that he’ll be okay, but I just hope and pray that he gets the most amazing teacher. Some one who will “get” him and the fact that his differences are also part of what make him special.

It’s hard to know that your kid is not the same as other kids. That he doesn’t quite “get it” the same way that other kids “get it”. That often times he learns things the hard way! That he looks bigger than most of the other kids, and yet is almost a year younger (December baby). That he is so creative, and it is possible for him to focus, and yet his single minded focus can get him onto to trouble as he shuts the rest of the world out so he can focus on his “creations”. I could go on, but I don’t feel like it.

I’m counting down the minutes until I can go and get him and talk to his teacher! That’s hard too. I don’t want him to get labeled, and dismissed. I just want him to be understood and appreciated, differences and all! Ugh! It’s so Hard!