Gettin’ On and Stayin’ On……..
…….Track - that is……..
September’s been a rough month for me.
It’s been crazy - physically, emotionally, mentally, financially……pretty much every “…ally” that you can think of.
I’ve let too many things slide, and I think that I’m back! It kinda all started when we got pregnant in July, and I really wasn’t planning on it. I was pretty excited, but then we lost that baby too. I was frustrated ’cause “my plans” said that we were going to get pregnant in August while we were on vacation, and it was going to be a wonderful relaxin’ time of fun and frolickin’ (if ya know what I mean “wink wink”) Instead, it felt like my body played a cruel trick on me, and then stalled!
I stopped eating healthy. I gained a few pounds. Nothing crazy, but I managed to get myself back up to 200lbs! SUCKS! I felt out of control, and I hated it! (BTW - I’m down to 195 - yah me!)
Our finances have “SUCKED BIG TIME” for this month. What came in was less than what needed to go out, and that is so hard. We don’t want to dip into debt any further. We just want to get out of debt. It’s not an option to use more debt to bail ourselves out, so what do we do????? When we got home from vacation at the end of August, our cupboards were pretty bare. I had to do some stocking, but that’s hard to do when you have very little money. I remember telling Jon that I would probably need an extra $100 tacked onto our grocery fund for this month, as the whole school start up/pantry filling had taken a toll of my usual monthly budget. We didn’t get that extra hundred, in fact I wasn’t even able to have the whole $500. I have actually spent exactly $500 this month. We sold a dryer for $75, and were given a little that helped to round it all out. Pretty good that enough came in form other sources, and that I didn’t end up going over my regular budget. (Gotta look on the bright side of things)
It’s so hard when there seems to be not enough. I want to stay on top of everything, but I hit the “What’s the use?” thoughts, and then it’s all down hill from there.
October will be better! I’ve already started on the upward trend. I just finished another salad for lunch, and I spent the last few dollars that I had on some fruit and veggies so we can have a “real” meal tonight. I fed my kids Mr Noodle Soup last night, and frozen chilli the night before that, and frozen soup the night before that. It’s been a bit lean around here.
I’m not sure that we will be actively trying to get pregnant this month. I’m going to talk with my OB on the 3rd about antibiotic therapy! If he agrees to try this with us, then this month will for sure be out. The hard thing for me is that next month Jon will be gone to Indonesia at the right time, and that puts us off until December. That seems so far away.
Oh well! What is supposed to happen will happen. Until then, I will keep working at trying to lose weight. If I have to wait, I can at least be proactive. Maybe I can get down 10 lbs. I’d love to do more, but let’s be realistic…….In the next 3 months, 10 is probably a good goal…..maybe 15, but 10 for sure!
I will lose weight.
I will relax.
I will have a baby.
(Thinking POSITIVE Thoughts)
September 28th, 2006 @ 2:49 pm
it’s always good to think speak and be positive! and being proactive is just great too. I feel so good about going to the gym 2 times this week! it makes me more aware of what I put into my mouth cuz my body hurts so bad right now (Krista is a drill sergeant) and I don’t want the pain to be for nothing! Maybe when Jon is in Indonesia you and the kids can drive up here for a vacation!!!
September 28th, 2006 @ 3:06 pm
Positive thoughts coming your way!!! I know what you mean about getting less than it takes to pay the bills and eat…those times are hard! We are trying to get ourselves out of debt as well! There are some books by a guy named Dave Ramsey and he is amazing!!! He has a class called financial peace and he helps people get out of debt. We’ve been doing some of his things…it helps!
September 28th, 2006 @ 3:06 pm
Hey girl….I’ve hit that ‘whats the use’ wall a few times…but it’s not the number of times you hit it - it’s the number of times you get up and keep going! One thing I needed to remember, is that we were IN debt because in the past, whenever we hit that ‘what’s the use’ wall - we’d charge it! Yup! Numb the pain - just put off til later, what was going to happen inevitably! Anyways..you sound like your doing better than yo uhave in a while- way to go!~ I know there are still days it ’sucks’…but ti does get better - will get better. We should get together and pray about the finances thing - what do you think?
September 28th, 2006 @ 7:40 pm
I know the high that comes from “charge it” - when I was feeling low… I always felt better after shopping. Bad therapy!
Over the years when things were lean and my hubby didn’t get a paycheque for the second month in a row kinda times… we did what we could when we could. He took an early morning job at McDonald’s cleaning up the parking lot (this was only a few years ago…), he’s ref’d volleyball games, works in a group home for challenged adults cleaning up adult poop and puke… all the while working full-time at the church. I’ve sold everything from Pampered Chef to Avon and worked as little as possible (20-25 hrs a week) for our local credit union. Whatever it takes to pay the bills but not too much that it ever gets in the way of church or family time.
God says in His Word that He has given us the power to get wealth, pray for those Godly ideas to come in. That’s what my parents did all those years we were near bankruptcy for the umpteenth time. I don’t have all the answers but I know for a fact that HE does.