I’ve washed my bathrooms for the 3rd week in a row! While that may horrify some of you, it’s freakin’ amazing to me.

I hate cleaning. Well, maybe hate is too strong of a word. I know, I know, “How many people actually like and enjoy cleaning?” I know there are some out there, but I just don’t happen to be one of them.

I am lovin’ me my Pink Solution! Stuff is fabulous and amazing. I ran out of laundry soap a couple of days ago, but no problem…..I just mixed up the “Heavy Solution”, dumped a cup of it into the load, and VOILA! Earth Friendly Laundry Detergent at my finger tips. I’m doing my kitchen floorr next, and if you saw the state of my kitchen floor you’d cringe.

We’re no where near calling in those cleaning ladies on that TV show that I can’t remember the name of who come and clean your house, and tell you what filthy animals you are, and take swabs and stuff, and culture it, and bring it back to tell you that their initial assement of your slovenliness has been verified by science, so there is no disputing it now, honey! But I’ve been feeling like it’s all a bit scungy (scummy and grungy all mixed together) Thank Goodness, I’m finally having a bit more energy to tackle some of it.

I’ve just been so, so, SO, SO, SO tired out early on in this pregnancy. I’m starting to feel a bit better now. I’m almost at the end of the first trimester (14 weeks) and I’m noticing that I feel less sick, and more energy. I would figure that how I’ve been feeling this pregnancy is probably very similar to what most women feel during their pregnancies. I’ve been a little sick, but not overwhelmingly so, more tired than when I wasn’t pregnant, but no where near the tired of the last 5 pregnancies…..(I would wake up at 7am with the girls, and then barely make it until noon when they took their naps, and fortunately they’d sleep for about 2 hours, and then I’d be up until about 8:30pm before I went back to sleep again – it was not a fun thing to feel like you were drugged all the time for 9 months)

So far, this has been an amazing pregnancy. I’m looking forward to the rest of it, and especially when I get to bring the little one home. It still feels a bit surreal, like I don’t know what to expect. The brain is a funny thing. I’ve said it before, but it’s almost like it’s in protect mode. I don’t remember what it was like having, and bringing home Geli, Xani and JJ. My memories seem to stop back when I came home from the hospital without Nathaniel. Not that I don’t have any memories beyond that, but you know how you can go back and relive a memory. Especially one that is going to be a similar experience, and you can remember and imagine what it will be like when you go through that again. That part of it seems to be gone.

In some ways, it means that this will be like a first all over again. I have to be honest and say that I’m really looking forward to it all. There will be just over 6 and a half years between Jeremy and this little one, and “they” (whoever they are) say that anything beyond 5 years is like staring over again from the beginning where as when they are closer in age, that you just keep going on with the cycle…..Does that even make any sense to you? I seem to be having a harder time today getting my thoughts out clearly! Oh well! The kids will all be in full day school, so it’ll just be me and the little one at home all day. I could cuddle all day if I wanted to. I can even nap! That will be heavenly! Plus, the kids will also get to be involved in some of the baby stuff. They don’t remember any of the baby stuff from each other ’cause they were too little. It will be fun and exciting, and challenging I’m sure. But we’ll just all be so happy!

In other news, I bought a little undershirt today. I really don’t have anything left from the kids. I have a little bit of girl stuff, and not too much neutral stuff, and even less boy stuff. I basically gave it all away either before I got pregnant with Nathaniel or after when I was going through the losses. So, today at Stupid Store they were selling a little yellow Semame Street snap at the bottom onesie. I know that this little one should be born in August, and so it should be hot enough to just wear onesie’s, so I bought it. It was on sale for $3.95. I’m such a big spender. After all the losses, even though I really think that this one will live, it’s still hard ’cause you want to be excited and get some stuff, and not leave it all until the last minute, but at the same time it hurts so bad when you look at the stuff after a loss and you have no baby to use it on.

I’m not going to dwell on that right now. I’m trying to just live in the moment, and right now…..this moment is a happy one. Unfortunately, it’s also a HUGE PILE OF LAUNDRY WAITING TO BE FOLDED one….so I should go.

I do have dinner made though. I made Hamburger soup with rice and frozen mixed veggies. Not my finest meal, but it’s done and I still have an hour until it’s dinner time. Well, those clothes are calling me. Oh, here a pic of me at 12 weeks!