Today marks the day that I am officially half way to my estimated due date. YAH!

This is so exciting considering that I felt so little hope in the first few weeks. Now, not only is this baby thriving, but we also know that it’s a little boy, and we are so excited.

We told the kids on Friday, after they got home from an overnighter with Jon’s parents. I was so surprised and SO APPRECIATIVE that they would take all three of them, and yet I wondered why? It would be SO MUCH EASIER to just take one or two at a time, but I guess it gets it over and done with quicker if they do all three at once. My concern is that it would be too much, and then they wouldn’t want to take a kids again for A LONG TIME……and that……THAT WOULD SUCK! Oh well! The kids are home, and hopefully every one’s happy and not too worn out?

So, we told the kids on Friday, and everyone is thrilled. They’d be thrilled either way, but ti’s just so much fun knowing. It’s funny how knowing makes it all so much more real. I bought a baby name book, and even a pregnancy journal. It’s been fun going back and filling in all the info from the past months. Fortunately, I have this website to get the details off of. Even though I didn’t publish it, I kept a record of this whole pregnancy hidden in secret until I shared our exciting news with all of you. So, even though I hadn’t written anything in a book or on paper, I still had records of Dr’s appointments and feelings and dates and other stuff.

Don’t ask me how it made sense to me that it was okay to type it out here, but that I couldn’t write it in a book. I think my thinking must have been that maybe I could just ignore that part of my website if something were to have happened, but it’s hard to ignore that book sitting on your bedside table that you’ve poured your heart into.

Maybe it’s a better thing, ’cause I might have filled the book up with all my fears and doubts, and now it’s full of all the happy things. Not that the sad things are invalid, but one day if I pass the journal on, I don’t want my kid to see that I was a basket case some of the time. I’d rather him see that I was excited to be carrying him…..which I was, and am…..there was just this fear that I might lose him.

Now, I am beyond the point of no return. I am……with everything that I can……embracing this little boy, and regardless of what happens……I will do my best to honor his little life with every moment that I have.

Today is a good day, and I will embrace it and do my best to live it to the fullest.